and so it goes.....

We are getting by those first few days in a daze.  So much has changed since those first days of blogging.  We saw many friends come and go.  Many lost their furbabies and we joined them in sorrow and then they left.  Back then I could not understand why they stopped blogging or dropping by, but now I can see how the sadness can make it nearly impossible to carry on with things.  I am not sure how I would get thru this without my husband and my furbabies and all of you.  Those on facebook, instagram, blog friends, meetup friends...people I met thru my etsy shop.  Everyone's comments, well wishes, and good thoughts have meant so much to me. From the day of diagnosis 6 months ago to now it nearly seems impossible that this has happened.  We all love them, try to keep our babies well and alive and then grieve in only a way we can understand when they pass. We were blessed that our girl had 6 wonderful months with us post diagnosis. At that time I remember praying that she would just make it thru Summer. I'm sure if you have looked back in our blog her favorite place in the world being at our camp. She was the queen. We got her as a puppy in 2002 - she was born on the 2 year anniversary of my mom's death. She filled and overflowed a void that was in my heart. She welcomed 5 furry brothers and sisters into our home over the following years. She never missed a beat. She was never any trouble. She didn't chew, bark or get into anything. She was never sick. Two weeks ago we took her with us for a last day at camp. We took out "her chair" and lite a fire...even though it was daytime. We didn't speak about why we were doing this...we just did. She sat in the sun by her fire for the afternoon. At the end of the day, we loaded the chair into the truck  knowing it would not be used by her there at camp again. On this past Friday..her last earthly day, we took this chair to our patio and made a fire in the fire pit. We asked her if she wanted to "go to camp" and watched her little ears perk up. We sat outside with her for the next two years and talked about how she had come to be with us and her life. We told her how much we loved her. We put the fire out and took a long drive to the lake to listen to the waves. None of us will ever forget our babies. RIP Chloe 11-12-02 to 10-24-14...heaven has gained another angel.