Happy Halloween

 

and so it goes.....

We are getting by those first few days in a daze.  So much has changed since those first days of blogging.  We saw many friends come and go.  Many lost their furbabies and we joined them in sorrow and then they left.  Back then I could not understand why they stopped blogging or dropping by, but now I can see how the sadness can make it nearly impossible to carry on with things.  I am not sure how I would get thru this without my husband and my furbabies and all of you.  Those on facebook, instagram, blog friends, meetup friends...people I met thru my etsy shop.  Everyone's comments, well wishes, and good thoughts have meant so much to me. From the day of diagnosis 6 months ago to now it nearly seems impossible that this has happened.  We all love them, try to keep our babies well and alive and then grieve in only a way we can understand when they pass. We were blessed that our girl had 6 wonderful months with us post diagnosis. At that time I remember praying that she would just make it thru Summer. I'm sure if you have looked back in our blog her favorite place in the world being at our camp. She was the queen. We got her as a puppy in 2002 - she was born on the 2 year anniversary of my mom's death. She filled and overflowed a void that was in my heart. She welcomed 5 furry brothers and sisters into our home over the following years. She never missed a beat. She was never any trouble. She didn't chew, bark or get into anything. She was never sick. Two weeks ago we took her with us for a last day at camp. We took out "her chair" and lite a fire...even though it was daytime. We didn't speak about why we were doing this...we just did. She sat in the sun by her fire for the afternoon. At the end of the day, we loaded the chair into the truck  knowing it would not be used by her there at camp again. On this past Friday..her last earthly day, we took this chair to our patio and made a fire in the fire pit. We asked her if she wanted to "go to camp" and watched her little ears perk up. We sat outside with her for the next two years and talked about how she had come to be with us and her life. We told her how much we loved her. We put the fire out and took a long drive to the lake to listen to the waves. None of us will ever forget our babies. RIP Chloe 11-12-02 to 10-24-14...heaven has gained another angel. 

Run free baby girl

Today we said goodbye to our beautiful Chloe - a chunk of my heart went with her. 

Sisters

Zoey decided to hang out with Chloe this morning and give her some comfort. 

So many memories!

This photo reminds me of how silly and fun owning these little Pugs are!  This is way back when we first started our blog.  Our second Halloween owning Pugs.  Since it seemed these two were "all about eatting" I decided to make them into burger meals.  We had a lot of fun that year with the "Burger Sisters"!

No matter how many beds in the house...

They all still want the same one!

Throwback Thursday

Wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back with my honey.....before Pugs!

Sad news....

Sadly the news is not good for Chloe. Our vet can not remove the tumor as it is 4 times the size of the first tumor. She can come home after 2 today and we will see how things go for a couple of days. We have to make the right decision for her and not be selfish. It is so easy to just want to keep them here forever, but as their caretakers WE must do what is best for them, not us. Although my heart is shattered into a million pieces, I have to think about her and all the unconditional love she has given to me over the past 12 years. She saved my broken heart after my mom died. I owe her making a good choice for her.

Holding our breath

Chloe has not been doing well this week. She does not want to drink from water bowl, so she became dehydrated this morning.  It is hard to say if the cancer has taken over or the tumor hurts her mouth so bad she is afraid to drink.  Her surgery is scheduled for tomorrow....the vet will evaluate her in the morning to see if it is even still an option.  These are hard days for sure......

Hats hats hats

Some hats I've made - great for simple costumes or to keep furry noggins warm!

Changing seasons

Today we took out screen porch down at camp. Miss Chloe went along.  We even gave her a campfire! Bittersweet day all around.